Stopped blogging for the time being ...
At least , at a different site ...
Sorry ... Byebye ...

Again , without Mahin , sickening days ...
So ... Teacher's Day Celebration ...

Woke up , school , slacked with Fan Xing , Min Hao and Jet Jin .
Then , Morning Assembly while Band and FunFit weren't here , talked to Winny .
First lesson , Food&Nutrition . Went to computer lab and did stuff , solo work without Vanessa .
Then , Lawrence Lim . Damn him and his assignments , stupid and retarded .

Recess , with Zhi Cheng , Min Hao , Fan Xing and Yong Jun .
Stoned at Yong Jun after he came late , together with Fan Xing , Min Hao , Zhi Cheng , Melissa and Jonie .
Then , double Sugu . Slacked , played with Fan Xing and Abigail using the ruler .
Second Sugu , went to library and quiet-quiet beside Abigail , Fan Xing and Fenna .

Then , Teacher's Day Performance . First , Dance Club - Winny , Natalie , Chelsea and others .
Next , guitar and singing , solo by a girl . Piano solo of Wedding Dress by a guy .
Then , another dance by Soh Huishan and other girls . More stuff , didn't bother .
Rock band with 3 electronic guitars with some other instrument - not identified .

Then  , went back to Kheng Cheng with Sabine . Jonie and Crystal ditched meee ! ):
Talked to Azlan , Sing Ying , Edwin and Min Hao in the bus while going back .
Ran all the way because of Mrs Tay's message that she's going for a workshop at 2 . -.-
Wrote down name and all other particulars and went inside .

Special mention to ...
Larissa Goh , Dong Wenqin , Winnie Lew , Javier Tan . Anzoe Ho , Wesley Teo , Aaron Lim , Ng Wei Kiat , Zavier Tan , Shawn Hoh , Mesakh Lim , Abel Lim , Jaryl Loh , Jonas Goh , Brian Yim , Bryan Choo , Tan Jun Yang , Alison Tan , Loke Kailin , Yvette Chia and anyone else who I've interacted with and smiled .
They're the friends who've made my day at the trip back to Kheng Cheng . ^^v

Hugged Larissa , Winnie , Anzoe and others . Hung around with everyone and talked to Mrs Tay .
Walked out of school with Jun Yang , Wei Cheng , Mesakh , Jonas , Brian and Jaryl . Javier joined .
Played truth or dare while at the bubbletea shop , Mesakh went off first .
Slacked around and then went back home , got their numbers and said bye-bye .

Done .

6th day without Mahin ... ;(

Woke up , went to school , slack at Parade Square , talked to Fan Xing , Min Hao and the other people .
Then , Morning Assembly . Damned Principal wouldn't let us go back when it was drizzling .
Rushed back , first , Sugu . Slack like f*ck , got shouted at by Sugu because we were shouting .
Then , Physical Education . Did more of the ACES Day routine , this coming Friday morning .

Then , Food & Nutrition . Damn , Farah , Miss Lim and Yap were in class - 3 teachers . -.-
Recess . Slacked with Yong Jun , Zhi Cheng , Min Hao and Fan Xing .
Walked with Fan Xing to the bookshop , bought stationary and book before going back .
Double Mother Tongue , someone * not mentioning * cried .


Reason ; Jet Jin did her lead.com work using his account , which Lim Siew Hong could see anytime .
Before that , group work with Zhi Cheng , Yong Jun and Abigail .
Then , double Science . Bored to death , talked about measurements . -.-
Lawrence Lim . Damn funny . :D :D :D :D :D


Min Hao : I don't even think you're a man !
Lawrence Lim : Hey , you can insult my family , can insult me , but cannot insult my 'man hood' .
Min Hao : Haha ! Man hood ?! *Gives retarded face while the whole class laughs*
Lawrence Lim blushed , was so damn freaking disgusting and stupid . -.-

Then , Form-teacher period . Fuck that Hiran , stepped on my toe and it bled , cried a little .
Lim Siew Hong talked and talked and talked , more like nagging , about results .
Jet Jin , Zhi Cheng , Sing Ying , Keniko and someone else have to see her on Thursday .
Then , went off . Fan Xing was angry and tried looking for Lawrence Lim - he wanted his 20 marks .

Then , Chinese Orchestra . Rachel didn't come , damn her !!
Emo while around Linn , Geraldine and Fan Xing . Malcolm came late .
Then , went for break . To the Hall and saw Agnes and Winny dancing . (; Chio :D
Talked to Miss Kang about Fan Xing's results , went back for practice .

Slept while the seniors practiced the song that I didn't know of .
Then , went home , threw temper .
Done . Bye-bye .

You were once hurt , 

But you could've recovered from the pain .

You didn't ,

Instead , you hurt more people .

5th day without Mahin . )):

Went to school , idiot followed and went to pay the school fees .

Had to hide using my red file to block my face while behind Amani .

Saw him , talked to Fan Xing , Jet Jin and Amani .

Then , FunFit went off . Mrs Lim and Miss Kang weren't there , happy .

Mrs Lim ruined everything when she walked to our class and then went off again . -.-

Slacked with Winny and the others while Karamjit called out the pupils who ditched CCA .

Arkar , Alvin , Royston and others . So , went off .

First , Geography . Didn't do anything but slack while Miss Kang was absent . 

Then , Physical Education . Damn it , it sucked . -'-

Had to dance in front of 4N3 , 1E2 and 2N2 . What's more , the ACES Day dance !

But , it was quite fun , a little . :DD Looked at him the whole time ...

Dance steps ; March , Neck rotation - Right , Left , Bottom , Top .

Next - hands in the air , clap , hand roll , punch down .

Don't really remember the rest , plan to ask Julian Lee for the sheet of paper .

So , went off . Then , Jeffrey Ang . Potato cried . Apparently he got insulted with song lyrics edited .

Jeffrey Ang gave us warning , said not to do it again , then did filing of worksheets .

Crystal's file was used . Then , handed in and got some shut-eye .

Went with Fan Xing and Jeffrey Ang to the Staff Room to put the files .

Then , went for Recess and ate with Keniko , Qi Rong , Yong Jun , Jet Jin , Min Hao and Fan Xing .

Changed out of the shirt , into uniform , then went off to class with Yong Jun , Min Hao and Fan Xing .

First few to reach . :D Played the Er Hu , attracted some attention from 1E1's Matilda and Joey .

Sugu . Slacked , then Mother Tongue . Copied notes , took note of the holiday homework .

Last , Sugu again . Went to Computer Lab . ^^v Got onto Facebook and Blogger .

Then , went back to class with Min Hao , Yong Jun and Fan Xing .

Yong Jun and Min Hao cleaned the classroom while I doodled on the whiteboard .

Fan Xing , Min Hao and Yong Jun played around and erased some names , then I wrote them back .

Then , went off . Fan Xing , Yong Jun and I went to the Foyer and to the toilet .

Yong Jun went off to his NPCC , Fan Xing and I went to 2T1 for Chinese Orchestra .

Saw Melissa and Yi Jie together . o_o" Twice .

Then , slacked around with Malcolm , Linn and Fan Xing .

Went for 10 minutes break , told by Geraldine . Bought 4 bottles of Green Tea .

Gave one to Jonie , the other to Fan Xing , one for someone and one for myself . ((:

Talked to Jonie and Sharlene at the Bookshop before going off and said hi to Joey .

Did more practice and went off to the Music Room with Rachel's schoolbag and 2 instrument bags .

Had combined practice with all the instruments , whispered and gossiped to Rachel .

Then , was nagged at by the conductor and Miss Irene Ng .

Went off while committee members stayed back .

Right now , blogging . Talked to Mahin and Fan Xing via Windows Live Messenger .

So , byes . :D :D

It took me just a second to know you ;

A minute to talk to you ;

A day to fall in love with you ;

But time can never estimate how long it'll take to forget you .

And now , I regret .

Because , I would've chose another if I had the choice and chance .

But , I should just believe in this heart of mine .

Until I fall , until I crash , only then will this heart give up ,

On the love that will never be granted .

" I'm only gonna break break your break break your heart "

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Today was a bitch , it fucked me real hard .
Why ? Because of all the shit that happened .

So ... Here's what I promised , to Yong Jun .

Dear Yong Jun :

Thanks for having been my friend despite the fact that I quarreled with her so many times . I know it's an awful fact to know that your girl is quarreling with her once-sister . But don't worry , I'm going to treasure my friends and emotions from now on . But , I can't promise that , they're empty words , for the time being . Thanks for letting me birthday-bash you despite the fact that you know it would be painful , since it's coming from me .

Thanks for letting me copy your homework and sometimes getting into trouble with Lawrence Lim and the other teachers . Made you infamous , o_o" . Thanks for always entertaining me ever since we had the sitting arrangement that you were sitting diagonally to me . Thanks for always making me laugh and knowing when to keep quiet and when to talk , depending on whether I have a mood swing or not .

Thanks for trusting me with your secrets , and you being my secret bottle for some of my secrets , no matter how minor or major they may get , you never get too dramatic , never screamed at me nor showed me attitude despite all the bad things I talked about her when I was quarreling with her . Thanks for having been such a cool friend with a nice temper and a really funny attitude .

You're a reliable , trustworthy , kind and sincere friend . The type of guy that I've never really understood until I entered Secondary School . But , you're not handsome . :P You're the type of guy that many will trust and like , not in the relationship type of way . You're a really great friend . Teddy bear . ^^


Also , just a letter to Amani and Keniko .

Amani :

I was having a mood swing just now , so I apologize . But , despite the fact of you being my best friend , you didn't know how to react whenever I had mood swings , and I would give you that attitude for at least a day . Please , just stop making jokes and laugh when I've already said that I feel fucked up and just want some peace and quiet . Thanks . I'll get over it soon , probably tomorrow I'll talk to you . But , for today , just let me be .

Keniko :

Damn you . You think your jokes are funny ? Think you're so well-liked by everyone and pretending that you don't understand what I say just to make people think you're stupid and laugh ? Stop giving that irritating and idiotic attitude , like nothing bad ever happens in your life . Maybe there really isn't anything bad happening , but just know this : Others need to have their own time , and that's a time where 'friends' should shut up and just give them the space to chill off . I ain't gonna trust you no more , ain't gonna talk to you . What I've said during the CIP , I mean it . I've already asked Miss Kang to change my place to avoid more of this to happen .

" Amani loves you " said Amani . :P
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In this world of lies , you did the most sins .
Pushing away everyone who held you close ,
You didn't appreciate , and even found it irritating .
So , what do you want me to think now ?

4th day without Mahin . T.T Gonna die without her entertainment soon , literally .
Morning , wake up . Ate bread for breakfast , went online to Facebook and then went to school .
Talked to Fan Xing , Amani , Ainul , Jet Jin , Min Hao and Zhi Cheng .
Then , teachers came to catch pupils up to some strange pla-card holding about Teacher's Day .

Teacher's Day pla-card holding , really long . Malay : Selamat Hari Guru . Chinese : Jiao Shi Jie Kuai Le
o_o" Adibah and Matilda , together with another girl , were on the rostrum pronouncing names .
Slacked while some guy kept shouting "Jiao Shi Jie Kuai Le" which made the upper secondary laugh .
Almost half the class of girls disappeared . -.- Only Winny , Abigail , some girl and I were left in the females .

Then , first lesson , Jeffrey Ang . Slacked outside Science Lab while Mrs Lim nagged at us .
Went for lesson while Devi kept using the syringe to make small dots of water on my hand .
Sprayed the remaining amount of water at her . Vanessa sprayed at me from behind . -.-
Then , Lawrence Lim . -'- Had to stand behind because I lied that I left the worksheet under the table .

Talked to Amani and Yong Jun , Amani was claiming that her ponytail was a penis . :DD
So , Mother Tongue . Copied work on newspaper and got to go lead.com for holiday homework .
** Note : Only for Chinese Language pupils , please be reminded to go to lead.com **
Then , Recess . Emo at D&T block while waiting for Amani , Ainul , Haziq and Shohib .

Next , Music . Victor Goh let me play "Can't take my eyes off you" and got 2 extra points . ^^v
Then , Geography . Miss Kang wasn't here , so Salim took relief . Slacked and emo with Amani .
Next , Sugu . Slacked and drew stars , moons and some other stuff . =p Teamed up with Hiran .
Damn , he was extremely damn annoying while talking about stuff related to Friedrich instead of slacking .

Last , Pastoral Care . Mrs Lim talked about earthquakes and related it to the values .
Then , had ERP chained after Pastoral Care with Jeffrey Ang , went through corrections .
Went to the library with Keniko , Amani and Ainul .
Librarian went mad and threw all belongings from a guy from 1E1's bag . -.-

Then , she scolded Amani , Ainul and I while telling us to go outside to dance if we're restless .
Hafiz is beside me , don't dare to say hi ? Posted on his wall telling him that I'm beside him . -.-
So now , slacking and going to off the computer while Amani takes her EZ-Link card back .

What am I to believe ;
That you were always here , or that you pretended to care ?
Who am I to blame and trust ;
You , friends , past , family or anything else ?
This world that's full of lies , I wish it had never existed .
Wish we all died , then we'd have no jealousy existing in this damned world .

God , why did you have to give us humans , emotions ?

Thought you promised me to be there for me whenever something happened .
Though you broke my trust and crushed my heart several times .
Despite all this , I tried to get up and walk down this road ,
Closing in to you , I was afraid because of what you have done before .
And soon , I will forget . I hope I will , because the pain is killing me ...

Third day without Mahin DDDDDDDD:

Fuck today . 25th + Amani told me something that really made me mad .

** Note : On every 25th of each month , I would be really quiet **

So ... Went to school , talked to Sheng Hao . He said that I was emo-ing these few days .

Saw Melissa walking down the sheltered area on the road . 

Went to find Amani and to the foyer's table and talked to her about her 'secret' .

Got real pissed , what was so good about him ? Seriously , Amani , why of all people , why , HIM ?!

So , attitude her while talked to Fan Xing , Jet Jin and Min Hao .

Went to sitting arrangement while FunFit pupils went off .

Badmouthed the upper secondary [some of them] and the teachers with Winny .

Then , had to go meet Chinese Orchestra members - Secondary 1 to 3 .

Saw Rachel and bullied her like hell ,  Fan Xing told me to give her 'face' .

-.- So played around , was given a form on Air Rifle during the holidays , September 6 .

1230 - 1800 . WTF ?! Then , went back to class alone .

First lesson , Sugu . Obviously , slacked and talked to the others .

Awkward with someone and ignored Amani . =p

Then , Hajjar . She didn't come , replaced with an old man .

Talked to Fan Xing and Min Hao , they talked about dota and I had no way to relate . -'-

Then , another teacher replaced , female , had to rush out Food & Nutrition worksheet .

Recess , ate with Fan Xing , Min Hao , Yong Jun and Qi Rong .

Jet Jin and Zhi Cheng was called out by Kamsari and was at the office with 4T1s .

Slacked at the tables outside while waiting for them , settled , I think , according to them .

Went to find Amani , Haziq , Shohib and Ainul with Fan Xing while the rest went to Canteen .

Disturbed Haziq while he played as a cat again , Shohib borrowed my glasses .

Went to the road curb with Fan Xing while he was trying to find her .

No one , not a single soul . Only a loner at the end of the road .

Saw Alvin , Arkar , Lorenzo , and another 2 guys , they claimed that Fan Xing and I were dating . -.-

Then , went back to class and slacked while played ruler fight with Fan Xing .

Mother Tongue , Malay class was canceled . Learned about idioms and how to apply them .

Then , Mathematics . Lawrence Lim told me that he wanted me in front of the class tomorrow .

So , got to copy fast . :D All because I was laughing while Zhi Cheng was doing funny stuff . -'-

Then , Music . Thanks Victor Goh , you're the best ! :DDD

He translated the piano piece of a song I wanted , into the notes for me to play next year . ^^

Then , did Music Test , played Happy Birthday and another piece .

[7 7 7]  [7 5 3]  [3 2 0]  [0 3 7]  [12 12 12]  [12 10 8]

Got 9/10 . A certain somebody had to act and said that she got 11/10 . -'- HYPOCRITE .

Then , Geography . Slacked and went through test results . Got 15/20 . Overall was 57.5/100 - C5 .

Highest was Crystal , with 85 . Young Hoon had 82.5 . -.- Yong Jun had 80 . D:<

Then , end of lesson . Talked to Miss Kang about switching places , she would do something about it .

Played the Er Hu with Vanessa , Abigail , Fan Xing , Emmanuel and Sabine .

Did CIP work with Min Hao , Zhi Cheng and Yong Jun . Talked about some stuff .

Jeremy of 3N1 and Irene of 3E1 was in charge of us , together with another girl .

Then , while walking out of school , saw him and that girl . The one in this school .

Ayes ... Really hurts to keep it all inside , you get what I mean ?

... Bye bye . Fuck this day , fuck it fuck it fuck it !! I hate this , really I hate it so much !!

You never bothered about me .
You never cared about me .
You never thought about me .
You never cried for me .
You never smiled for me .
You never dreamed of me .
You never claimed that you knew me .
You never tried to think of how I felt .
You didn't do anything to change that , you were un-noticing . 

You only thought of your own pain .
Only bothered about them , not me .
You only saw yourself , only saw others , but never was it me .
So ... You still want me to continue ? Want me to forget and start anew ?
Think it's easy ? Try it yourself . Do and prove something before telling others to do it .
So ... If you would hate me over this , then let me tell you this :
Just throw me away like everyone else did , because I do not deserve this treatment .