Thought you promised me to be there for me whenever something happened .
Though you broke my trust and crushed my heart several times .
Despite all this , I tried to get up and walk down this road ,
Closing in to you , I was afraid because of what you have done before .
And soon , I will forget . I hope I will , because the pain is killing me ...

Third day without Mahin DDDDDDDD:

Fuck today . 25th + Amani told me something that really made me mad .

** Note : On every 25th of each month , I would be really quiet **

So ... Went to school , talked to Sheng Hao . He said that I was emo-ing these few days .

Saw Melissa walking down the sheltered area on the road . 

Went to find Amani and to the foyer's table and talked to her about her 'secret' .

Got real pissed , what was so good about him ? Seriously , Amani , why of all people , why , HIM ?!

So , attitude her while talked to Fan Xing , Jet Jin and Min Hao .

Went to sitting arrangement while FunFit pupils went off .

Badmouthed the upper secondary [some of them] and the teachers with Winny .

Then , had to go meet Chinese Orchestra members - Secondary 1 to 3 .

Saw Rachel and bullied her like hell ,  Fan Xing told me to give her 'face' .

-.- So played around , was given a form on Air Rifle during the holidays , September 6 .

1230 - 1800 . WTF ?! Then , went back to class alone .

First lesson , Sugu . Obviously , slacked and talked to the others .

Awkward with someone and ignored Amani . =p

Then , Hajjar . She didn't come , replaced with an old man .

Talked to Fan Xing and Min Hao , they talked about dota and I had no way to relate . -'-

Then , another teacher replaced , female , had to rush out Food & Nutrition worksheet .

Recess , ate with Fan Xing , Min Hao , Yong Jun and Qi Rong .

Jet Jin and Zhi Cheng was called out by Kamsari and was at the office with 4T1s .

Slacked at the tables outside while waiting for them , settled , I think , according to them .

Went to find Amani , Haziq , Shohib and Ainul with Fan Xing while the rest went to Canteen .

Disturbed Haziq while he played as a cat again , Shohib borrowed my glasses .

Went to the road curb with Fan Xing while he was trying to find her .

No one , not a single soul . Only a loner at the end of the road .

Saw Alvin , Arkar , Lorenzo , and another 2 guys , they claimed that Fan Xing and I were dating . -.-

Then , went back to class and slacked while played ruler fight with Fan Xing .

Mother Tongue , Malay class was canceled . Learned about idioms and how to apply them .

Then , Mathematics . Lawrence Lim told me that he wanted me in front of the class tomorrow .

So , got to copy fast . :D All because I was laughing while Zhi Cheng was doing funny stuff . -'-

Then , Music . Thanks Victor Goh , you're the best ! :DDD

He translated the piano piece of a song I wanted , into the notes for me to play next year . ^^

Then , did Music Test , played Happy Birthday and another piece .

[7 7 7]  [7 5 3]  [3 2 0]  [0 3 7]  [12 12 12]  [12 10 8]

Got 9/10 . A certain somebody had to act and said that she got 11/10 . -'- HYPOCRITE .

Then , Geography . Slacked and went through test results . Got 15/20 . Overall was 57.5/100 - C5 .

Highest was Crystal , with 85 . Young Hoon had 82.5 . -.- Yong Jun had 80 . D:<

Then , end of lesson . Talked to Miss Kang about switching places , she would do something about it .

Played the Er Hu with Vanessa , Abigail , Fan Xing , Emmanuel and Sabine .

Did CIP work with Min Hao , Zhi Cheng and Yong Jun . Talked about some stuff .

Jeremy of 3N1 and Irene of 3E1 was in charge of us , together with another girl .

Then , while walking out of school , saw him and that girl . The one in this school .

Ayes ... Really hurts to keep it all inside , you get what I mean ?

... Bye bye . Fuck this day , fuck it fuck it fuck it !! I hate this , really I hate it so much !!

You never bothered about me .
You never cared about me .
You never thought about me .
You never cried for me .
You never smiled for me .
You never dreamed of me .
You never claimed that you knew me .
You never tried to think of how I felt .
You didn't do anything to change that , you were un-noticing . 

You only thought of your own pain .
Only bothered about them , not me .
You only saw yourself , only saw others , but never was it me .
So ... You still want me to continue ? Want me to forget and start anew ?
Think it's easy ? Try it yourself . Do and prove something before telling others to do it .
So ... If you would hate me over this , then let me tell you this :
Just throw me away like everyone else did , because I do not deserve this treatment .